There is one quote from this movie that sums up how I feel about blogging. Meg Ryan is emailing Tom Hanks and she says:
"The odd thing about this form of communication is that you're more likely to talk about nothing than something."
This is exactly how I feel about this blog post. I realized that I haven't posted in a very long time and I wanted to post. But I couldn't figure out what to say. And then I thought well there is nothing I want to say. This is my epiphany: This form of communication, my blog, is a whole load of nothings. But maybe that is the point of blogging. To distract yourself with a load of nothing and that distraction is the something. I am just not sure. I am still getting the hang of all this.
What I am sure of is that it is finals time! ((Insert Jaws theme here)) I am not a good test taker. I am an anxiety lady. School is stressful for me. I am not like my brilliant sister who graduated summaa cum laude...In fact one of my mom's favorite jokes to make is: Eden, she is going to graduate thank the laude! Which I find hilariously truthful.I am so excited for this May 11 when I will be finished for the summer! Especially because next fall I will take a large step toward my ultimate goal of becoming a Dental Hygienist :)
But can I admit something to you? I am scared. Dental Hygiene intimidates me. I have heard on all sides that this is so difficult. Achieving this goal is going to be one of the hardest things I have ever done. Not just school but also taking the boards. Just thinking about it gives me a pain in my chest. Then on top of this I will be moving out on my own for the first time EVER! That adds so much more stress on it! I am overjoyed to be accepted and So so so happy to be taking this step in my life but... I can't exactly explain it so maybe this other quote from this movie explains it better. It says:
"You are daring to imagine that you could have a different life. Oh, I know it doesn't feel like that. You are marching into the unknown armed with...Nothing."
The difference is though that at this part in the movie she is scared because she is losing something. I guess it is opposite for me..I am achieving something. But these situations are similar because we are both diving into the unknown.
Maybe I should try to convince myself that instead of being scared I am actually brimming with excitement.
Nope that's not working. I am definitely just scared.
