Saturday, July 9, 2011

Married LIfe

I am sitting here in my sister's kitchen at her Beautiful newly installed window seat observing them.

That sounds like they are my new science experiment... Let me explain,

My sister invited me to spend a little time with her and her husband. Offered to make me dinner and watch a movie. I even got to swim in there pool. Which is a real treat after a HOT Georgia day like today. I mean come on people here in Georgia we are talking tops at 94 degrees today.


Well as I sit here and they are busy being all married and making my dinner and just being them I realize that I cannot wait to be doing this. Just being married.

Friday, July 8, 2011

Who am I?

That the Lord of all the Earth
Would Care to Know my Name
And care to Feel my Hurt?

These lyrics are running through my mind as this question is burning in my brain. Who am I? I am unworthy. Who and I? I am a human. Who am I? A human that messes up. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?

Why did I feel the need to say something I never should have said? Why am I STILL beating myself up about it.

You're not supposed to say something about someone negative. If you don't have something nice to say. Don't! Right?

Even if you feel that it needs to be said. Even if you feel like the person needs to know. Even if they are someone very special to you who you feel is being treated wrong by the person closest to them.

Yeah you are supposed to keep your mouth shut.

Life lessons are the hardest things to learn.

I learned this one the hard way.

Stay out of other people's business. Don't judge even though you feel you are doing right. If they are happy be happy for them.

I am not you. I am not telling you what to do. I have never tried to do that. I just wanted to be your friend. Sorry that I messed up so big. Sorry I said something when I should have kept my mouth shut. Sorry that I hurt someone with words. (Especially after similar things happened to me)

I hope you read this.