My irrational Christmas list :)

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1. I would like some beautiful, cute, trendy, awesome boots. I have been searching and searching for some boots that would fit my legs. Alas, instead of calves I have cows. My legs are pretty muscular so it is very very difficult for me to find any boots that fit. In fact I have been looking for almost 2 years now. still searching. Any suggestions :)
2. I have recently come to loving these shoes. I mean come on people. If I buy one pair they send one to kids in Africa. Decision made.
3. I so so so want an Iphone but people I refuse to pay the monthly bill. Even If I am fortunate to have wonderful parents that would help me out. Plus I would absolutely LOVE this little device. It is not happening. At least not until I have a grown up job. Hey that just means I only have to wait another year and a half right?! Right.
4. I would love love love love to have a new pair of gap jeans. I realize they are more expensive than the normal jean but people let me just tell you they last forever and fit so well.
5. Last but not least I would love to have one of these babies. This will be the PERFECT place to study for my summer classes. I just cannot wait until the weather is just right for me to hang this little guy up and read a book by the lake. Or go camping and sleep in this baby.

Man O Man. Dream dream dream :)

Ps. Apparently when I make a wish list it is imperative for me to repeat myself 3 times.

so Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas.

Go tell it on the Mountain.

Oh man you guys. I have had the most amazing week so far.

Can I just tell you that I am SO IN LOVE with Jesus Christ! Just after I had posted that last post down there, I had the most depressing emo feelings. Then I woke up the next morning and still had those feelings. I sat on my couch and thought Ok I know it's Sunday. Church is something that is supposed to happen. But even though I knew it was that time I sat and thought..I am not going. I will have to be there alone, it will be awkward. There is no way that I am going. Well Christ has his way of gently tugging at your heart until you are completely being torn away from what you think is the right decision. So I sat up and said I am not Chickening out. I got up and went. It was awkward alone but I was there to be filled with Jesus again. Oh how wonderful!

It seems that this Christmas season when I am down, A song pops into my head. That song my friends, is Go Tell it on the Mountain.

Imagine with me, actively climbing a mountain and standing on the very edge of this precipice and looking at the glory of the Lord. Then opening your arms and shouting, "JESUS CHRIST IS BORN!!!"

I have decided to form a bucket list of sorts. This activity will be one of my top 10 things I want to do. Maybe not yell exactly that sentence. Maybe I will just be yelling praises to the almighty. I am not sure, either way I am looking forward to climbing this mountain.

Home

I have always listened to all the Christmas songs that mention being home for Christmas. Even though these songs are special to me it's not because I could ever relate. This year however, I understand exactly what they mean.

Can I tell you the truth?

I was so so so very excited to move and be on my own. To have the "away from home college experience" that I have seen my friends and family love. But mine is not the, "away from home college experience" that most have. I live in an apartment, not in a dorm. Although I know some people in the complex, It's nothing like the wonderful experience I was anticipating. You see my sister went away to college. The only sibling of mine that has lived in a dorm. I would visit her and dream of being there. Being able to just skip down the hall and hang out with my best friend from college. You know the one that is a bridesmaid in your wedding. The one your call to have lunch with. Unfortunately, this has not been my experience.

Don't get me wrong blog people. I am adjusting finally. It has taken 4 months to get to this point. But now with the Christmas season here I am forced to face the fact that I am not at home looking at that glorious 9 foot tree with all the homemade ornaments from our childhood. But now that it is my job to have my own cheer. Right?

My all time favorite Christmas movie is Meet me in St. Louis. In this movie Judy Garland debuted a song called Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas. (This just happens to be my favorite Christmas song) In the scene she is comforting her little sister, Tootie, because they are moving to New York the next morning. Although this song doesn't particularly say anything about being home for Christmas it still evokes the feeling of homesickness that often occupied my thoughts here in my apartment.

I so look forward to being home for Christmas.

What a sad sounding blog this is evolving into. I have decided my next post will contain feelings of happiness and love.