The chances of success with an IUI increase with each attempt.
The first attempt there is a 20% chance of success.
The second attempt there is a 40% chance of success.
The third attempt there is a 60% chance of success.
We got pregnant with the 20% chance, but lost it. So I thought 40%...Come on there is no way this isn't going to work. I was wrong.
I never had the symptoms from last time but I thought each pregnancy is different. Right? Apparently maybe not for me.
The IUI was completed 2 weeks ago today. So today was my test date. But I already knew. Today has been weird. I've been sick this week so William and I have been home all week. He hates being home so I feel guilty. Because I know we should leave the house today. But I can't. I can't see any pregnant people, I can't see any new babies, I can't see people. Because I'm not emotional. I'm not angry, I haven't really cried but if I see out there I will break. But staying here will break him.
It's also weird bc neither of us have had a reaction. I just don't know what to do.
After the third attempt of IUI they choose a different treatment because the chances don't go up. The chances actually decrease. So now I'm scared. Scared to go on and Scared to not got on. I'm not ok with IVF. The cost is astronomical and honestly the cost isn't a true factor. Because we have a way to pay. My parents are helping but that is a huge number and what if it doesn't work.
Also our biggest fertility problem.. I'm overweight. I have PCOS. That's it... SO are we going to spend upward of $15,0000 because I am overweight?
So our next plan of action. We are going to do IUI one more time. but after that I'm done. I 'm done until I loose weight. Because if I can loose weight and possibly have a baby then that's what I will try.
Basically no baby. No baby now. Possibly no baby for a very long time. So I looked into adoption. Although possible, it will take take at least 2 years. Not because of the process of adoption but because we live in a basement right now. We are going to build a house. We start next August. So They wouldn't consider us while we live here.
This sucks and I'm starting to get bitter.
