Blog Update

It is one of my wishes to be an amazing blogger like so many I know. Alas I am a sporadic blogger with no cohesive (is that the correct term?) blogs. O how I long to be one with awesome pictures in ever post. I am not. Maybe when my life is not consumed with tests and school. Hopefully..one day :)

just not today.

My new life

So..A little disclaimer! This post is so long! It is mostly for me. Really it's just so I can remember my first two days of Dental Hygiene school! Here it goes:


Yesterday I began a new adventure in my life. It was the first day of classes. The first day of dental hygiene school. Ok so maybe this doesn't sound exciting to the rest of you but you need to understand, I have wanted to be a dental hygienist since I was a freshman in High school. Actually I am not sure that I can pinpoint it to that year. I feel like it was before....Either way, I have wanted this for at least 7 years of my short 21 years in this life.

As class began yesterday my professor said this to us:
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"You are going to cry more, stress more and freak out more than you ever have in your life...and you chose this!"-Ms. Miller.

It's amazing how this exemplifies every feeling that I have had about school.

Just last week I was in tears because I was so stressed and it hadn't even started school yet!

But now it has started :)



And guess what...It is exactly what I thought it would be... So very challenging! Just yesterday we had a full lecture chalked full of information and things that I had to know.

Today was just the same. More and more information thrown at me for eight hours.

So for my own enjoyment let's recap my first two days of school:

I woke up and looked at phone. My sweet mother sent me a text that said, "Wish I could be there to make your 'first day of hygiene school' picture. :-) love Mom.

Of course this made me cry but then I decided I would take the picture for her so... here you go mom:

My first day of Dental Hygiene school:



School was just full of syllabi and a very large set of notes. After school I got to see my boyfriend! He had made a trip to Rome earlier that day for some business he had to help take care of. So it just so happened that he stayed and hung out with me for several hours! What an amazing guy :)

Then my awesome brother and mom made a special trip to fix my internet. He did a wonderful job. Then I said my goodbyes and tried to sleep...Yeah right.

I woke up early this morning to go to school. After I was all ready for school I went out into the parking lot of my apartment building and I saw a girl that is also in the program. We ended up carpooling.

School started like the day before. Filled with syllabi and boring notes. But then something awesome happened! They passed out our instruments! I was almost hyperventilating I was so excited! In fact the girl sitting next to me kept looking at me. I don't think there was anyone as excited as me!







After receiving my very own instruments I went to lunch with a few girls from the program. It was awesome! I am really excited about the other girls I am meeting. We ate at Panera...yes Chelsea I did it! You were right it was delicious :)

After we got back to class my teacher surprised us with an awesome tooth morphology DYD! Our very own tooth and gingiva model:



The teeth COME OUT!!!!!! SO AWESOME!



a set of teeth that are just loose,



and an awesome coloring book of Head and neck anatomy!



O my goodness I cannot wait! Now I just have to sit down with my books and really get into this! I am so pumped!!!!

I know the hard work is coming so very soon! But I am so so very excited about it!


And if this isn't enough today I started the Jillian Michael's 30 day shred! This video made my sister look SO HOT right before her wedding! I am determined to look just as hot! What a wonderful week!!!!

A Picture is worth a Thousand words.

Why is it that when people look at pictures they automatically look at the faults? For instance:

My legs look deformed.
Oh my! Do I really look THAT chubby?!
How did my teeth get that yellow?

Why do we have that immediate response? Is our self image really that horrible?
I guess what I am truly asking...Is my self confidence really that low?!


This are my new revelations:

1. I need to look at the good things in life more often.
2. I need to remember that God formed me in his image every moment of everyday (yes that includes everytime I look at a new picture of myself)
3. Meaning that Every single time I look at a picture or in the mirror and say I just hate my nose, or Oh my look at that belly!, or even (and this is the worst) I wish I looked more like her!....Every time I put myself down, I am also saying that God made a mistake.
4. ( a little story behind this one) A woman at the store came in and said...I want a dress with sleeves...I hate my arms..They wobble! Let me just tell you...They didn't. But she wouldn't have it that I was telling her that. And big surprise here..She fell in love with a strapless dress. I told her she looked wonderful! (bc she honestly did) and she just kept saying oh my wobbly arms...I finally said it's all in how you carry yourself... JUST work it!
So number 4 revelation....Just WORK IT!!!

Not to toot my own horn but....

Toot toot!


I am allowed to. Want to know why? I was made in the image of something perfect. God made me the way I am supposed to be.

Each stretch mark, mole, pimple, and "beauty mark" on my person was put there purposefully. I have decided to cherish each one.

:I never think of the future. It comes soon enough." -Albert Einstein

If I had a quote that is supposed to represent this summer it would be the one by Mr. Einstein. My goal was to relax and not stress these few months. I know what is coming. Dental Hygiene school....Yeah I am freaking out. But everyday I am reminded of the stress that will be my future in just 2 very extremely short months.

Every time I sign on to the wonderful world of facebook there is a new friend requests made by the other young ladies that will be entering into the program with me. After I see the friend requests it pops into my mind that I still have no apartment lined up. That I don't have everything I need for that apartment. That no matter how much I don't want to admit it I am not ready to move out of my childhood home. That I am scared out of my mind to face the crazy tests that are going to be coming my way. O dear Lord I need some prayer. Even now I feel like crying. I hate stressing out.

Side Note: Do you know what I realized the other day??? That when I move out this August it could very well be the last time that I live in my childhood home. A year from now I could be engaged....maybe possibly.... not so sure about that one. But it is a possibility. And if that is true than I will be married the summer after I graduate from dental hygiene school (if everything goes as planned). Yeah that is CRAZY!!!!!

This is my dream y'all. To be a hygienist. I just have to go through schooling. I Can and WILL do this!

What a negative post. I hope to have a more positive report next time blog world.
Please pray for me.

Retail, Dandelions, and White hair

I, like most college students, have a little part time job working in retail. I come into contact with countless people while I am at work. Tonight was exceptionally full of new faces. Each new face taught me a little lesson about myself but here are just a few that affected me the most.

There is this little boy that comes in with his mother. They are frequent shoppers. I love this little boy. The first time I saw him he had a mohawk of little blond hairs, converses on his tiny feet and the cutest face I have seen in a very long time. Being my father's daughter, I immediately began interacting with him. So his mother responded with saying, "Hey Jackson, Pound it!" He reached out with his little tiny toddler fist and I formed my gigantic adult fist and he gently tapped my fist with his. Oh I was smitten :) The next time I saw William I went on and on about this awesome kid I had met. When I have children I would love for my kid to be so very much like him.

Tonight his mother came into the store and I was so excited to see the toddler that had stolen my heart. But in the place of this precious toddler there was a rowdy (in a good way) boy with glasses that was easily 3 feet tall. It was him. My little customer, Jackson. He isn't so little any more. It was in this moment that I realized that kids really do grow like Dandelions.

Did I mention that tonight I worked POS? To those who have been lucky enough to avoid retail jobs, this means Point of Sale. It's basically who checks you out when you are finished with your shopping experience. To add to this pleasant experience it was also senior citizen discount night. This brings around many awkward moments where I have to either suppose that someone is old or wait for them to tell me they are old.

Getting to the point here... This sweet older lady came through my line and immediately said, "Senior citizen discount." Me, being the person that I am, Said I can't wait to be older and have white hair and grandchildren I can spoil mercilessly.I just love the idea of sitting on a porch with a glass of sweet tea, reading a book (with my magnifying glass in tow) and enjoying life. I want to be that crazy old lady that sits and talks about nothing at all. This seems like a wonderful stage in life. It's not that I want this to happen tomorrow... I want to enjoy every moment of my soon to be 21 year old life. It's not that I want to wake up tomorrow morning with a white hair on my pillow. I am just not dreading this time in my life. There are so many that dread being old, Not me.

Finally, the last lesson I learned: I love being able to tell someone that I was born and raised in the area that I still reside.

A woman and her daughter came through my line and as I was checking her out the conversation got around to how she had lived in many places and just ended up here. She asked me if I had always lived here. I said, "Yes Ma'am, born and bred. In fact my parents went to the same high school right down the road." I love living in a place where I have a heritage. Where I know the back roads. I have no desire to move away from here. I love living close to my family, my church, everything. Maybe I am too stagnant. It is entirely possible that I need to move away and gain some life experience. I am just not someone that thought I can't wait to get out of this town.

In conclusion:

I am not exactly the biggest fan of working in retail but I am a fan of learning life lessons. Especially in the most inconspicuous ways.

You've Got Mail

There is one quote from this movie that sums up how I feel about blogging. Meg Ryan is emailing Tom Hanks and she says:

"The odd thing about this form of communication is that you're more likely to talk about nothing than something."

This is exactly how I feel about this blog post. I realized that I haven't posted in a very long time and I wanted to post. But I couldn't figure out what to say. And then I thought well there is nothing I want to say. This is my epiphany: This form of communication, my blog, is a whole load of nothings. But maybe that is the point of blogging. To distract yourself with a load of nothing and that distraction is the something. I am just not sure. I am still getting the hang of all this.

What I am sure of is that it is finals time! ((Insert Jaws theme here)) I am not a good test taker. I am an anxiety lady. School is stressful for me. I am not like my brilliant sister who graduated summaa cum laude...In fact one of my mom's favorite jokes to make is: Eden, she is going to graduate thank the laude! Which I find hilariously truthful.I am so excited for this May 11 when I will be finished for the summer! Especially because next fall I will take a large step toward my ultimate goal of becoming a Dental Hygienist :)

But can I admit something to you? I am scared. Dental Hygiene intimidates me. I have heard on all sides that this is so difficult. Achieving this goal is going to be one of the hardest things I have ever done. Not just school but also taking the boards. Just thinking about it gives me a pain in my chest. Then on top of this I will be moving out on my own for the first time EVER! That adds so much more stress on it! I am overjoyed to be accepted and So so so happy to be taking this step in my life but... I can't exactly explain it so maybe this other quote from this movie explains it better. It says:

"You are daring to imagine that you could have a different life. Oh, I know it doesn't feel like that. You are marching into the unknown armed with...Nothing."

The difference is though that at this part in the movie she is scared because she is losing something. I guess it is opposite for me..I am achieving something. But these situations are similar because we are both diving into the unknown.

Maybe I should try to convince myself that instead of being scared I am actually brimming with excitement.



Nope that's not working. I am definitely just scared.