OVERLOAD

Short post Comingatcha...
So many things have happened since I last posted in December. I have officially finished school...That fact is still so so surreal to me. I have officially FINISHED school. O man. I could say that a thousand times and still not believe it. I have OFFICIALLY FINISHED school. Just wow.

When I say I am finished I mean it. I have even already taken the 2 tests required to receive my license as a hygienist. The first test was a test that required that I take a patient and clean that patient's teeth at a level that would allow me to pass. Letmetellya: I passed..I not only passed I rocked it!Rocked it as in I got a 100!!! I have never danced for Jesus before but that moment it was me getting down with the big man upstairs. To make the news even better my class found out that EVERYONE in our class passed. We were excited (to say the least). We screamed, some of us literally cried, and most of us just hugged each other knowing that we had conquered something that we had been preparing for since the beginning of the school session.

This was taken April 19, 2012-- Still can't believe it happened and that it has been so long since it has happened.

I have also taken the written exam. Actually I have just taken the written exam this week. I have not gotten the results back and it will be a while before I do. I am not very confident about this test. It was very difficult. I am hoping I will be able to tell everyone I have passed this test as well but alas I will not know until later. Still constantly praying for this.

To make everything seem even more exciting I will be walking in my graduation on May 12. Man, So many things about to happen.

Speaking of things to come...My wedding is in....48 days. WHAT?! I have been trying not to be that girl...you know the count down girl. Well I have done pretty well on Facebook but blogger is my secret, "Yes I am the countdown type girl" place. Thank you blogger.

We have sent out our invitations and have began getting response cards back. I have to say this is making it feel...real and very soon. It is also getting me nervous excited because I am now realizing how many people will be sharing in my and William's day. It's gonna be a packed house Y'all!

You may be wondering why I am suddenly updating my blog. It may or may not be because tomorrow is my first wedding shower. It may also be because I honestly feel like this is Christmas eve night. Which might be a trend I am representing here. Seeing as my last post was the eve of Christmas. I bet I post when I am so excited.

And finally to document a little about today. Today I got the opportunity to go with my beautiful cousin Lacy (who happens to be my future sister-in-law (Don't judge...we are in GA and I promise it's not as twisted as you think)) Where did we go? We went to get my dress that I will be wearing in her wedding which will take place in September.I can't wait to be in this wedding. Can't believe I will be the MATRON of honor.

This has been quite a journey. Can't wait to document the months to come.

Side note: This post is not as short as I had originally planned.It has also been quite scattered but Thus is my brain. It has been quite overloaded.

6 months

I am overjoyed and overwhelmed at this realization: I will be a married lady in 6 months. Can you believe it? I will be married to this man:



It's difficult for me to understand this fact.

6 months....Holy Cow that is no very long at all.

Another completely different thought I have is hurdles.

I was that kid. You know the one who never ever ran track and really had no place on that track. Saying this I would be in gym class and I would get cocky and start running toward a hurdle thinking o yes I can do this. I would start running at full speed and get right to it and come to a complete stop. It was at that second where I stopped that I realized that hurdle I am trying jump is as tall as my waist. There was no way.

I am challenging myself with the new hurdles in my life. I will begin racing toward them and jump on faith.

My hurdles: In January I will be entering into my last semester of Dental hygiene school. This school has been the most challenging and worst experience of my life so far. I will be taking nations boards and credits and just overall being overwhelmed.

All of this while trying to plan a wedding...I am plain crazy.

I am excited. I am stressed. But mostly, I am happy.

Not to mention that it is now officially Christmas eve Morning.
I love Christmas. I love my family. It's this time of year, when these things combine that I am happiest.

Knowing the love of my savior and knowing God sent him for me. Wow. That is powerful.

Know what else is powerful? Prayer.

6 months...chalked full of prayer, and love.

Thankful

**Warning: This post will be mushy**

I am thankful for a guy that sets my alarm when I fall asleep before I set it. That He thinks to do it before he goes home.

I am thankful that I want to have his last name, even though it will make my initials be EW..Get it people like EWWWWW that smells... Yeah I still want to have his last name. That's love.

I am thankful that he is a funny guy. Even now he is making me laugh out loud.

I am thankful that he loves me and that I love him.

I am thankful that he is the Christian leader of our future household.

I love that he loves Him, Jesus that is.

I am thankful for June 23, 2012.
I am thankful for John 15:9.
I am thankful for him.
Most of all I am thankful for Him.

Married LIfe

I am sitting here in my sister's kitchen at her Beautiful newly installed window seat observing them.

That sounds like they are my new science experiment... Let me explain,

My sister invited me to spend a little time with her and her husband. Offered to make me dinner and watch a movie. I even got to swim in there pool. Which is a real treat after a HOT Georgia day like today. I mean come on people here in Georgia we are talking tops at 94 degrees today.


Well as I sit here and they are busy being all married and making my dinner and just being them I realize that I cannot wait to be doing this. Just being married.

Who am I?

That the Lord of all the Earth
Would Care to Know my Name
And care to Feel my Hurt?

These lyrics are running through my mind as this question is burning in my brain. Who am I? I am unworthy. Who and I? I am a human. Who am I? A human that messes up. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?

Why did I feel the need to say something I never should have said? Why am I STILL beating myself up about it.

You're not supposed to say something about someone negative. If you don't have something nice to say. Don't! Right?

Even if you feel that it needs to be said. Even if you feel like the person needs to know. Even if they are someone very special to you who you feel is being treated wrong by the person closest to them.

Yeah you are supposed to keep your mouth shut.

Life lessons are the hardest things to learn.

I learned this one the hard way.

Stay out of other people's business. Don't judge even though you feel you are doing right. If they are happy be happy for them.

I am not you. I am not telling you what to do. I have never tried to do that. I just wanted to be your friend. Sorry that I messed up so big. Sorry I said something when I should have kept my mouth shut. Sorry that I hurt someone with words. (Especially after similar things happened to me)

I hope you read this.

Egg Shells

I feel like I have been walking on Egg shells for 22 years now. I am tired of being careful. Maybe you can tell by the way I say what I think now. I am especially tired of walking on egg shells at this point in my life.

I am so so excited to be engaged to William. Especially at this time in my life I refuse to walk on egg shells. Every plan I have made so far I have worried what if, what if I hurt someone? For instance the dresses I am trying on...What if they look like something you are already looking at? O man I am so tired of it. I am ready to just bee planning my wedding the way I want to and not be worried about the eggshells.

I am not longer being careful and walking on eggshells...I am going to start dancing on the egg shells. Doing what I want for William and MY wedding. I will no longer worry about what you are doing.

I am not longer responsible for any ones feelings but my own.


That being said... I am so so excited! It is now less than a year until I get married :). We have made so many strides to that day already! We have put a deposit down on the theater where the reception will be held. I have looked at dresses for the first time. I have pretty much made the decision of which style I am wearing. I can't wait to tell everyone all about what the plans are. Man I am so so excited!!! :)

The Least of These.

This is a new Bible study I have felt lead to embark on. One that studies Christ's journey in the world and how that journey had many many many encounters with the smallest, meekest, most vulnerable there were. Those that were cast out, Those that didn't feel they had a prayer. Those that were segregated and different. Those that didn't have the same beliefs, They are the ones I want to know more about. I want to know about Saul before he became Paul. I want to know More about the Leper that was so covered with sores that no one would be in his area let alone reach out and touch him. I want to know about the woman that was so desperate to just touch the Lord she fought through a crowd to be nearer to him. I want to humble myself to as small as they felt. Because I feel it is here when they were on their knees they found salvation. I need to be put back on my knees. Figuratively and literally. This is my new desire. To become one of the Least of them. The one that seems and feels unworthy because I feel it is when they humble themselves to that low it is then they truly deserve the love and affections Christ offered to everyone.