So question...
Why are words so hurtful? Sticks and stones right? Aren't I rubber...You're supposed to be the one that is glue. The words are supposed to back fire and hurt the hurtful one. Yet today someone said something to me that I keep dwelling on.
On the flip side of that, Do I say hurtful things? I know I have not ever called someone what I was called today. Not to a person's face. Even though this gives me some comfort I realize I do think and say things that are not nice.
Just some thoughts running through my mind.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Connect
What a week I have had. It has been filled with 2 tests, Many hours of studying, stress, love, happiness, joy. It seems to me that the last three do not coincide with each other correct? In my wonderful life they do :)
My sister came to visit me this Sunday. She decided to come help me find a church in my area. I am very thankful she did. I went into this church Sunday feeling awkward and unsure...then the music started. It was a wonderful thing that happened at that point. I got a feeling. You know the feeling where you know God is near. Where your heart flutters and your hair stands on end. I had that. All I could say was. Hello God, I have been missing you.
That last statement is a wonderfully sad one isn't it? I have to confess that it has been a while since I have felt the way I did Sunday. Life gets in the way.
There are no excuses for this. I allowed moving, school, and other things get in the way of my worshiping.
Now though I look forward to attending this place God has set aside for people to gather and worship. I can't wait for William to come up and enjoy a service with me. I really want to thank Chelsea for coming up and missing her home church service.
I look forward to growing in my life. At school and in this new area.
My sister came to visit me this Sunday. She decided to come help me find a church in my area. I am very thankful she did. I went into this church Sunday feeling awkward and unsure...then the music started. It was a wonderful thing that happened at that point. I got a feeling. You know the feeling where you know God is near. Where your heart flutters and your hair stands on end. I had that. All I could say was. Hello God, I have been missing you.
That last statement is a wonderfully sad one isn't it? I have to confess that it has been a while since I have felt the way I did Sunday. Life gets in the way.
There are no excuses for this. I allowed moving, school, and other things get in the way of my worshiping.
Now though I look forward to attending this place God has set aside for people to gather and worship. I can't wait for William to come up and enjoy a service with me. I really want to thank Chelsea for coming up and missing her home church service.
I look forward to growing in my life. At school and in this new area.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Blog Update
It is one of my wishes to be an amazing blogger like so many I know. Alas I am a sporadic blogger with no cohesive (is that the correct term?) blogs. O how I long to be one with awesome pictures in ever post. I am not. Maybe when my life is not consumed with tests and school. Hopefully..one day :)
just not today.
just not today.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
My new life
So..A little disclaimer! This post is so long! It is mostly for me. Really it's just so I can remember my first two days of Dental Hygiene school! Here it goes:
Yesterday I began a new adventure in my life. It was the first day of classes. The first day of dental hygiene school. Ok so maybe this doesn't sound exciting to the rest of you but you need to understand, I have wanted to be a dental hygienist since I was a freshman in High school. Actually I am not sure that I can pinpoint it to that year. I feel like it was before....Either way, I have wanted this for at least 7 years of my short 21 years in this life.
As class began yesterday my professor said this to us:
"You are going to cry more, stress more and freak out more than you ever have in your life...and you chose this!"-Ms. Miller.
It's amazing how this exemplifies every feeling that I have had about school.
Just last week I was in tears because I was so stressed and it hadn't even started school yet!
But now it has started :)
And guess what...It is exactly what I thought it would be... So very challenging! Just yesterday we had a full lecture chalked full of information and things that I had to know.
Today was just the same. More and more information thrown at me for eight hours.
So for my own enjoyment let's recap my first two days of school:
I woke up and looked at phone. My sweet mother sent me a text that said, "Wish I could be there to make your 'first day of hygiene school' picture. :-) love Mom.
Of course this made me cry but then I decided I would take the picture for her so... here you go mom:
My first day of Dental Hygiene school:
School was just full of syllabi and a very large set of notes. After school I got to see my boyfriend! He had made a trip to Rome earlier that day for some business he had to help take care of. So it just so happened that he stayed and hung out with me for several hours! What an amazing guy :)
Then my awesome brother and mom made a special trip to fix my internet. He did a wonderful job. Then I said my goodbyes and tried to sleep...Yeah right.
I woke up early this morning to go to school. After I was all ready for school I went out into the parking lot of my apartment building and I saw a girl that is also in the program. We ended up carpooling.
School started like the day before. Filled with syllabi and boring notes. But then something awesome happened! They passed out our instruments! I was almost hyperventilating I was so excited! In fact the girl sitting next to me kept looking at me. I don't think there was anyone as excited as me!
After receiving my very own instruments I went to lunch with a few girls from the program. It was awesome! I am really excited about the other girls I am meeting. We ate at Panera...yes Chelsea I did it! You were right it was delicious :)
After we got back to class my teacher surprised us with an awesome tooth morphology DYD! Our very own tooth and gingiva model:
The teeth COME OUT!!!!!! SO AWESOME!
a set of teeth that are just loose,
and an awesome coloring book of Head and neck anatomy!
O my goodness I cannot wait! Now I just have to sit down with my books and really get into this! I am so pumped!!!!
I know the hard work is coming so very soon! But I am so so very excited about it!
And if this isn't enough today I started the Jillian Michael's 30 day shred! This video made my sister look SO HOT right before her wedding! I am determined to look just as hot! What a wonderful week!!!!
Yesterday I began a new adventure in my life. It was the first day of classes. The first day of dental hygiene school. Ok so maybe this doesn't sound exciting to the rest of you but you need to understand, I have wanted to be a dental hygienist since I was a freshman in High school. Actually I am not sure that I can pinpoint it to that year. I feel like it was before....Either way, I have wanted this for at least 7 years of my short 21 years in this life.
As class began yesterday my professor said this to us:
"You are going to cry more, stress more and freak out more than you ever have in your life...and you chose this!"-Ms. Miller.
It's amazing how this exemplifies every feeling that I have had about school.
Just last week I was in tears because I was so stressed and it hadn't even started school yet!
But now it has started :)
And guess what...It is exactly what I thought it would be... So very challenging! Just yesterday we had a full lecture chalked full of information and things that I had to know.
Today was just the same. More and more information thrown at me for eight hours.
So for my own enjoyment let's recap my first two days of school:
I woke up and looked at phone. My sweet mother sent me a text that said, "Wish I could be there to make your 'first day of hygiene school' picture. :-) love Mom.
Of course this made me cry but then I decided I would take the picture for her so... here you go mom:
My first day of Dental Hygiene school:
School was just full of syllabi and a very large set of notes. After school I got to see my boyfriend! He had made a trip to Rome earlier that day for some business he had to help take care of. So it just so happened that he stayed and hung out with me for several hours! What an amazing guy :)
Then my awesome brother and mom made a special trip to fix my internet. He did a wonderful job. Then I said my goodbyes and tried to sleep...Yeah right.
I woke up early this morning to go to school. After I was all ready for school I went out into the parking lot of my apartment building and I saw a girl that is also in the program. We ended up carpooling.
School started like the day before. Filled with syllabi and boring notes. But then something awesome happened! They passed out our instruments! I was almost hyperventilating I was so excited! In fact the girl sitting next to me kept looking at me. I don't think there was anyone as excited as me!
After receiving my very own instruments I went to lunch with a few girls from the program. It was awesome! I am really excited about the other girls I am meeting. We ate at Panera...yes Chelsea I did it! You were right it was delicious :)
After we got back to class my teacher surprised us with an awesome tooth morphology DYD! Our very own tooth and gingiva model:
The teeth COME OUT!!!!!! SO AWESOME!
a set of teeth that are just loose,
and an awesome coloring book of Head and neck anatomy!
O my goodness I cannot wait! Now I just have to sit down with my books and really get into this! I am so pumped!!!!
I know the hard work is coming so very soon! But I am so so very excited about it!
And if this isn't enough today I started the Jillian Michael's 30 day shred! This video made my sister look SO HOT right before her wedding! I am determined to look just as hot! What a wonderful week!!!!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
A Picture is worth a Thousand words.
Why is it that when people look at pictures they automatically look at the faults? For instance:
My legs look deformed.
Oh my! Do I really look THAT chubby?!
How did my teeth get that yellow?
Why do we have that immediate response? Is our self image really that horrible?
I guess what I am truly asking...Is my self confidence really that low?!
This are my new revelations:
1. I need to look at the good things in life more often.
2. I need to remember that God formed me in his image every moment of everyday (yes that includes everytime I look at a new picture of myself)
3. Meaning that Every single time I look at a picture or in the mirror and say I just hate my nose, or Oh my look at that belly!, or even (and this is the worst) I wish I looked more like her!....Every time I put myself down, I am also saying that God made a mistake.
4. ( a little story behind this one) A woman at the store came in and said...I want a dress with sleeves...I hate my arms..They wobble! Let me just tell you...They didn't. But she wouldn't have it that I was telling her that. And big surprise here..She fell in love with a strapless dress. I told her she looked wonderful! (bc she honestly did) and she just kept saying oh my wobbly arms...I finally said it's all in how you carry yourself... JUST work it!
So number 4 revelation....Just WORK IT!!!
My legs look deformed.
Oh my! Do I really look THAT chubby?!
How did my teeth get that yellow?
Why do we have that immediate response? Is our self image really that horrible?
I guess what I am truly asking...Is my self confidence really that low?!
This are my new revelations:
1. I need to look at the good things in life more often.
2. I need to remember that God formed me in his image every moment of everyday (yes that includes everytime I look at a new picture of myself)
3. Meaning that Every single time I look at a picture or in the mirror and say I just hate my nose, or Oh my look at that belly!, or even (and this is the worst) I wish I looked more like her!....Every time I put myself down, I am also saying that God made a mistake.
4. ( a little story behind this one) A woman at the store came in and said...I want a dress with sleeves...I hate my arms..They wobble! Let me just tell you...They didn't. But she wouldn't have it that I was telling her that. And big surprise here..She fell in love with a strapless dress. I told her she looked wonderful! (bc she honestly did) and she just kept saying oh my wobbly arms...I finally said it's all in how you carry yourself... JUST work it!
So number 4 revelation....Just WORK IT!!!
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Not to toot my own horn but....
Toot toot!
I am allowed to. Want to know why? I was made in the image of something perfect. God made me the way I am supposed to be.
Each stretch mark, mole, pimple, and "beauty mark" on my person was put there purposefully. I have decided to cherish each one.
I am allowed to. Want to know why? I was made in the image of something perfect. God made me the way I am supposed to be.
Each stretch mark, mole, pimple, and "beauty mark" on my person was put there purposefully. I have decided to cherish each one.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
:I never think of the future. It comes soon enough." -Albert Einstein
If I had a quote that is supposed to represent this summer it would be the one by Mr. Einstein. My goal was to relax and not stress these few months. I know what is coming. Dental Hygiene school....Yeah I am freaking out. But everyday I am reminded of the stress that will be my future in just 2 very extremely short months.
Every time I sign on to the wonderful world of facebook there is a new friend requests made by the other young ladies that will be entering into the program with me. After I see the friend requests it pops into my mind that I still have no apartment lined up. That I don't have everything I need for that apartment. That no matter how much I don't want to admit it I am not ready to move out of my childhood home. That I am scared out of my mind to face the crazy tests that are going to be coming my way. O dear Lord I need some prayer. Even now I feel like crying. I hate stressing out.
Side Note: Do you know what I realized the other day??? That when I move out this August it could very well be the last time that I live in my childhood home. A year from now I could be engaged....maybe possibly.... not so sure about that one. But it is a possibility. And if that is true than I will be married the summer after I graduate from dental hygiene school (if everything goes as planned). Yeah that is CRAZY!!!!!
This is my dream y'all. To be a hygienist. I just have to go through schooling. I Can and WILL do this!
What a negative post. I hope to have a more positive report next time blog world.
Please pray for me.
Every time I sign on to the wonderful world of facebook there is a new friend requests made by the other young ladies that will be entering into the program with me. After I see the friend requests it pops into my mind that I still have no apartment lined up. That I don't have everything I need for that apartment. That no matter how much I don't want to admit it I am not ready to move out of my childhood home. That I am scared out of my mind to face the crazy tests that are going to be coming my way. O dear Lord I need some prayer. Even now I feel like crying. I hate stressing out.
Side Note: Do you know what I realized the other day??? That when I move out this August it could very well be the last time that I live in my childhood home. A year from now I could be engaged....maybe possibly.... not so sure about that one. But it is a possibility. And if that is true than I will be married the summer after I graduate from dental hygiene school (if everything goes as planned). Yeah that is CRAZY!!!!!
This is my dream y'all. To be a hygienist. I just have to go through schooling. I Can and WILL do this!
What a negative post. I hope to have a more positive report next time blog world.
Please pray for me.
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